A year ago the most meaningful relationship I've had came to an end. I'd been with him for over a year and I messed it up. We were.. so amazing together. Everything flowed perfectly, we understood each other, made it through family and other issues together, and were really in sync. Conversations.. just happened. There was no thinking about what to say, worrying about being rejected, or any other issues that usually happen. We talked things out and made solutions that worked for both of us. I've never felt so connected to someone before him or sense. When it ended I wen't through everything described in our blog topic. "It can leave one emotionally immobilized, stagnated, depressed and lead to self-destructive, self-defeating irrational behaviors, and regression." Saying I was extremely hurt and broken was an understatement. I realize it's stupid to get that attached to someone at a young age, but I was nonetheless. It's also stupid that thinking about this still brings up a lump in my throat.. I guess what I'm trying to say, is that I know first hand how ending a meaningful relationship can effect someone.
Even though I went through that, and it still hurts a bit, my view on relationships and life is as Steven Coallier said, "Attack life, it's going to kill you anyway." Life is too short to be sad. It really, really is. Relationships are beautiful. Their fun, exciting, supportive, and amazing. So, jump in and don't look back. Whenever you fall in love, you give your heart to someone and with that comes pain. It's going to happen, so enjoy every moment you have while it lasts. And that's all I have to say.
Cheers everyone.
Good luck wherever your life my take you.
Audrey Elizabeth
Audrey,
ReplyDeleteI just wanted to quickly say "Bravo" on your post. I couldn't have said it better myself. You are wise beyond your years. I didn't see things the way you see them until my current age of 20 years old. You are lucky to start realizing these things now. Knowledge and maturity will help you along your journey through life. It really is difficult to lose someone - especially one that connects so well with you. I experienced what you have experienced before at about the same age.
When I was 15, I began dating Nathaniel Lopez. He was my first real relationship, my first real love, my first kiss, the first person that I truly trusted with everything, and I loved him unconditionally. I still feel silly admitting to the fact that I actually experienced those kinds of emotions at such a young age. We fit together like two perfect puzzle pieces. Our relationship was almost effortless. It was fun, exciting, and full of passion. When my parents forced us to part, I fell apart inside. I didn't show it, but I really was a mess. We were together a little over a year. We broke up right before I turned 17: December 8, 2006. That was the day we ended. I'll never, sadly, forget that date. It was the day I lost the greatest friend I had ever had. We are still "friends" today. He is in a relationship, and as am I. So, for obvious reasons, we don't see or speak to each other much. We simply "check in" on the other from time to time to make sure the other one is doing well. It is an experience that was wonderful and amazing while it lasted, and it is very much a significant lesson/memory that I will always keep with me...
I apologize for rambling. This is a subject that still hurts and hits me hard. I'd just like to believe that what we went through wasn't for nothing. It had many purposes: it showed me that there are people out there that can be trusted. I learned that I can love someone outside my family truly and unconditionally. It taught me to enjoy the present. It is currently teaching me to not live in the past, and to look forward to a brighter future once again.
So, I guess my advice to everyone (many of whom are older than me who probably already know this, and for the few youngters in the class as well) is that take everything that is thrown your way, both good and bad, and make the absolute most that you can from it. Life really is short. Let's make every second count!
I have truly enjoyed being apart of this class. Professor Wilking really touched me with her life stories and taught me that life can be tough, but one thing is that it is NOT impossible. We just have to get up, brush ourselves off, and keep doing what we have to do. For the first time, I am going to be sad to see a class end. I wish everyone the best of luck in your lives! I will miss you all.
Best Wishes,
SAMantha Nicole Espinar
PS: Thanks Audrey. Your post really got my writing juices flowing... a little too much apparently. I couldn't stop writing. I had to cut myself off... just like I do now lol :P